Life

This past weekend i had a lot of fun! On thurs night we had people over to our apt. and it was a general good time! Then on fri we went out to some friends party and had a blast or at least i did! Sat i cleaned all day and Sun i did homework and ran to the store and that is when i figured out someone had STOLEN MY WINDSHIELD WIPER!!! WHO THE FUCK DOES THAT??? As you can tell i am still upset by this.....

Today (mon) i have been in a melencholy mood all day and i cant shake it! I feel like i am unwanted unloved by people. Everyone seems to have something going on in there life and i am always on the outside looking in. I feel like no one would remember i existed if i didnt force plans on them. I could die in my bedroom and i am pretty sure that no one would notice until i started to smell....which could be awhile seeing as its freezing down here! Not to mention i cant seemed to attract a decent guy to save my life.......all the guys in my life who think i am attractive just want to sleep with me.....is that all guys think about? I mean i am a great girl who is layed back, easy going, down home, country girl but apparently that only means i am a good fuck. Why does it seem that all the good guys are taken and that the few that are left dont want anything to do with me? I dont understand! I have been saying that i am giving up guys but thats not true bc without guys, i dont have friends! Bc girls dont like me for some reason...i literally can never be close with a girl. They all seem to like me but when it comes down to girl stuff i am left out....... Closing this random ramblings that probably make no sense to who ever is reading this....i will say that at this moment i feel like a social reject......guys dont want me and girls dont want me........great.......